I do love SiL, don't get me wrong. It's a beautiful episode. And the whole mythic way the show ends is very appropriate.
But...John dies. And it makes me so sad; I don't think it would be quite so bad if I didn't know that Delenn lives another eighty years after that.
Most of my ways to fix this center on John going to Z'ha'dum. Sometimes I just think of ways to make him not go - he tells Anna to fuck off; she never shows up at all; the argument he has with Delenn goes differently and he stays; she goes with him and somehow that changes things; he jumps but his inner Kosh saves him someway (IDK); Lorien fixes him without any of the bullshit 20 years thing; he finds a shuttle to take him back into orbit as the nuke drops. I have so many!
I mostly like the ones where he actually makes a choice between Anna and Delenn. The show itself kind of cops out there - Anna's a Shadow agent, really, the actual Anna is dead, and John figures that out pretty much immediately, and there's no choice to be made. But he still doesn't tell Delenn he loves her until after he finds out. So mostly I like thinking of an Anna that's returned without being a Shadow agent, who is either working for them fully consciously because she believes in them - which is kinda what JMS wanted to do, I think, the same with the Garibaldi storyline in S4, but it's easier to make these people not really under their own control. We can't hate them for their choices then; it's not their fault. (Cop out!) At this point it just becomes kind of a silly fantasy about John and Delenn's epic love overcoming everything else.
So yeah, sorry for the essay. It's dumb, I know, and there's not really a story there which is why it's just in my head and not something I'd ever write.
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Date: 2012-02-12 03:25 am (UTC)But...John dies. And it makes me so sad; I don't think it would be quite so bad if I didn't know that Delenn lives another eighty years after that.
Most of my ways to fix this center on John going to Z'ha'dum. Sometimes I just think of ways to make him not go - he tells Anna to fuck off; she never shows up at all; the argument he has with Delenn goes differently and he stays; she goes with him and somehow that changes things; he jumps but his inner Kosh saves him someway (IDK); Lorien fixes him without any of the bullshit 20 years thing; he finds a shuttle to take him back into orbit as the nuke drops. I have so many!
I mostly like the ones where he actually makes a choice between Anna and Delenn. The show itself kind of cops out there - Anna's a Shadow agent, really, the actual Anna is dead, and John figures that out pretty much immediately, and there's no choice to be made. But he still doesn't tell Delenn he loves her until after he finds out. So mostly I like thinking of an Anna that's returned without being a Shadow agent, who is either working for them fully consciously because she believes in them - which is kinda what JMS wanted to do, I think, the same with the Garibaldi storyline in S4, but it's easier to make these people not really under their own control. We can't hate them for their choices then; it's not their fault. (Cop out!) At this point it just becomes kind of a silly fantasy about John and Delenn's epic love overcoming everything else.
So yeah, sorry for the essay. It's dumb, I know, and there's not really a story there which is why it's just in my head and not something I'd ever write.