I can imagine this would be a really hard fic to write! It's such a dark premise.
From my experience with depression, the way you described John doing things like note that he's thirsty but not have the energy to do anything about it seemed absolutely believable (or with the eating, that is literally a thing I have done--sleep instead of eat even if hungry, because it's Too Much Work to eat). Also having bad days and days where you cope in different, somewhat-successful ways rings true too. (And oh yes, "Get up! Get up, idiot!")
Loved (as in wanted to hug him) the part with Franklin, btw, especially him being angry and not so submissive when he's not trying to take care of Sheridan. And "Delenn doesn't tell John that Anna's alive but imprisoned, because ulterior motives"--oh, that just twists the knife. Well done.
Part of the point of doing fic like this, I feel, is to go explore the dark corners that are wrong-but-hot, so. Also I don't blame the man at all for being turned on by Delenn even if he doesn't like her much at the time. :P
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From my experience with depression, the way you described John doing things like note that he's thirsty but not have the energy to do anything about it seemed absolutely believable (or with the eating, that is literally a thing I have done--sleep instead of eat even if hungry, because it's Too Much Work to eat). Also having bad days and days where you cope in different, somewhat-successful ways rings true too. (And oh yes, "Get up! Get up, idiot!")
Loved (as in wanted to hug him) the part with Franklin, btw, especially him being angry and not so submissive when he's not trying to take care of Sheridan. And "Delenn doesn't tell John that Anna's alive but imprisoned, because ulterior motives"--oh, that just twists the knife. Well done.
Part of the point of doing fic like this, I feel, is to go explore the dark corners that are wrong-but-hot, so. Also I don't blame the man at all for being turned on by Delenn even if he doesn't like her much at the time. :P